He Restores My Soul

After I had inner healings from sessions and experienced freedom, I began to identify recurring negative feelings. I knew I needed deliverance so that I would seek God on my own. One time, I realized I would get very angry if I got a haircut that was not to my liking, and especially if it was shorter than I had wanted. On my own without any prayer partners, I asked the Lord to take me back to the source and origin of that anger. He reminded me of a time when I was in middle school. My hair had just grown out to a length where I could curl it into a page boy style.  My mother insisted that it was time for me to get a haircut. I knew at the time it was expected of me to submit to it, even though on the inside I was seething with anger and rebellion.  In that memory, the Lord gently spoke to me and asked me to forgive my mother. After I did that, I knew that I needed to ask the Lord for His forgiveness for allowing that rage, rebellion, and unforgiveness to rule my mind for so many years. Forgiveness is a huge part of being set free. From then on, a disappointing haircut was just that, and my attitude was that it was just hair and would grow back. I was free.

I had been a competitive swimmer since I was six years old and was never afraid of the water. When I was older, I realized I had a fear of drowning. As an adult, I decided to take this to the Lord to find out about it. He took me to a memory when I was a young teen on a swim team. We had an end-of-summer party and were celebrating at a place that had a smaller pool than where we had competitions. One of the coaches had gotten a huge inner tube from an airplane that we were playing on in the pool. I fell off and struggled to surface because of the size of the inner tube compared to the pool and the number of legs that were in the way. I coughed and sputtered and had a hard time catching my breath when I did surface. This is where the enemy planted fear. I asked God to give me His truth. I sensed Him saying, "I will never leave you or forsake you." Immediately, I was set free from fear. I knew that if I ever had to face drowning, He would be there to take me to the surface or to heaven safely.

I have found that there are times when I need a team to help me get freedom rather than seeking the Lord on my own. Part of a prophecy I received said that I had a wall around my heart. I prayed and sought the Lord, but could not hear about this. During a Soul Healing session, the Lord took me back to a memory when I had been teased as a fifth grader. I built the wall for self-protection. God wants us to depend upon Him for protection. I asked God to take down the wall. When He did, I felt too vulnerable. When I told Him I could not function like this, He told me to put on the full armor of God. It is so wonderful to experience His freedom and then His protection.

Listening prayer is not just for inner healing. We can ask God a question anytime about anything and receive His answer. I had heard that God confirms everything with two or even three witnesses. I knew of some examples in the Old Testament but could not think of any in the New Testament. Since I was starting to study Matthew, I asked the Lord to show me examples in this book if there were any. The first example encountered was when Jesus was eight days of age. God used Anna and Simeon at the temple to confirm that Jesus was the Messiah. At Jesus' baptism, Father, Son, and Holy Spirit confirmed that Jesus was God's Son.  On Sunday morning, after Jesus' crucifixion, three women witnessed the empty tomb, confirming Jesus' resurrection.