One of My Greatest Gifts

In 2016, I was invited to a retreat by my friend Ingrid. My initial response was no; it was out of my comfort zone. She’s very persuasive and managed to talk me into it. I think she knew I was supposed to be there.  The retreat center was beautiful, and everyone was very friendly and welcoming. However, it WAS very much out of my comfort zone.  The women at the retreat seemed much more advanced in their walk with God than I was. I was uncomfortable because I didn’t feel worthy.  I watched and observed and was in awe of the women. I knew I wanted what they had, which I now understand was an intimate relationship with the Lord. 

I can honestly say attending that retreat was one of the best decisions I’ve ever made. Sometimes being uncomfortable is necessary to break down walls you didn’t even know were there.   My coronation was a pivotal moment with God, a moment that marked my heart with His unwavering faithfulness and love. He let me know I WAS worthy.  It was more than just a ceremony; it was the moment I truly felt seen, cherished, and chosen by my Heavenly Father.  I

 remember being in the main room of this beautiful retreat center, and we were worshiping. It was the most beautiful sound. It felt like there were angels in the room singing along with us. In fact, I remember telling one of the women next to me she had a beautiful voice, and she said it wasn’t her. Not going to mention any names, but I call her Queen.  

This experience became a turning point, and unexpectedly, God gifted me the one thing I longed for: true girlfriends who provided the deep, authentic connection I had always desired.  These friends brought a new joy into my life as we shared laughter, tears, and prayers together through every season.  This community of women lifted me up, believed in me, and reflected God’s love, showing that He understands our hidden desires and delights in fulfilling them in ways we could never have imagined. 

The greatest gifts are often those we never ask for, and through them, our hearts find hope once again.  I have met so many amazing women over the last ten years in this community, and I feel so honored and blessed to be a part of this beautiful thing God created.

Mary Summers-Jensen